I think I see the picnic!

[2chiquitos]

Thank you thank you ZIG! I need a kick in the rear! I also practice(d) attachment parenting without even knowing it had a title. I nursed S4 on demand, coslept, wore him until he was 2. Both families saw me as the perfect mother. S4 never had a tantrum before it all happened because he and I were always in tune with each other.

Then the week we separated S4 suddenly had tantrum. I told MC and she said it was normal since he's at that age. I told her I thought it was because he was reacting to our new living arrangments and in front of H kept going on about how it was just his normal toddler behavior (he was 3 at the time).

So now when I bring it up to H, he gives me the same bologna.

S4 has a meltdown when I go outside to move the car. He NEVER did this before! S4 pulls my hair or pinches D1 if I'm in the car talking to someone (in person or on the cell). S4 refuses to do things-walk to the bathroom to brush his teeth, stay seated to eat, pick up after himself, etc.

He would do this before because I would sing transition songs as we did it or my voice was nurturing or I would opt for carrying him.

Now I just lose it.

However I see somewhat of a pattern. It's usually when I'm thinking about my sitch, H and OW that I have that anger still in me. I am working on curbing these thoughts but struggle like crazy!

So you see zig. I totally agree with you. I need to be better about it and I'm not right now.

Only until I can let out my anger in positive ways will I truly feel like the person I've always wanted to be.

Love you zig and I hope you find your toilet brush! ;-)
BTW: I think your H took it! LOL!