hi ng - you always write me the sweetest posts - always. and you are always so so encouraging - thank-you! you are a true friend
i've been lying in bed with my lap top for the last hour - half asleep reading this wonderful blog that i just came across. these wonderful lists like - 15 things you should be able to say about yourself, 10 things you must give up to move forward.
i'm fascinated how this guy put this stuff together - so much wisdom!! i came to it after googling letting go - and he had a list that said 10 reasons to let go of something.
on one of the lists of course, i know, obvious, was to only surround yourself with people who truly love and support you - and then i came and read your post and i thought to myself - well ng is definitely one of those.
about the glimpse into h's world with ow - i had exactly the same reaction - WTH? the info did make me a bit edgy today - until i talked myself back to where i should be . i acknowledged that it's only human to start to get hope when you hear something like that. but it's not the demise of that relationship that will guarantee a reconciliation. it's the growth of the one between us that will. so when i see signs of the second then i will know that something has changed...
red velvet cake and champagne - oh, ng - you take care of me too well
of course i'm there -
oh, here's a really funny story - i'm guilty of having to admit that i haven't cleaned the house in weeks. it wasn't that bad because it's only s and me and we don't make much of a mess at all. but i go to scrub the toilet and the toilet brush is gone. I mean GONE - nowhere to be seen!!
How the heck does one lose a toilet brush?
h and s stop by to pick something up right when i discover this - and i say to s - s there's only me, you and your friends at this house. i didn't move the toilet brush, so do you remember if you or your friends did. he insisted no way. it was h who was ridiculous - he kept insisting that i must have forgotten that i put it somewhere else(the base in which it sits was still in the toilet, only the brush was missing)
at first i sort of let it go, but when he insisted for about the 10th time, i just turned and gave him a rather indignant, incredulous look, and said h, don't you think that i would remember if i put the toilet brush somewhere else, and why on earth would i do that, and why do you keep saying that i did!! he finally apologized - it was ridiculous how he seemed to want to see me as the person who would move a toilet brush and forget where they put it!!
the whole scene was utterly surreal - i never did find it, so will have to go and get another one.
I can't believe I lost a toilet brush!! wonders never cease...
i'm still shaking my head in complete puzzlement
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
- thank-you! you are a true friend
