Thanks people for all your lovely words! And concern and love! Thank you Barb for telling me about yourself and your story. I will always try to take what I can from others words.
Floating, thanks for jumping in the waters here! I said wasn't done with growing with growing I am done with my marriage. Your friendship with your H sounds a lot like mine. We go for days with out talking and then share friendly texts. I do know he would be there for me if I really needed something.
Zig you have always been someone whose friendship I valued and I appreciated your honest concern when I met that guy. I would never want you to censor your thoughts to me. Haha let me have it!