Dropping the rope, hope I'm doing the right thing.

[bustingout]

I think i can understand the sadness part.....the long hard journey....the pain you have worked through..the feeling of perhaps its too little too late....the fear of wanting to say yes, but still being unhappy.....

I remember something my coach said about.....better late than never.....maybe your H is at this place now.....late...but not never....does being late still mean it can't be good and what you need/want? Only you will know after i am sure some deep hard conversations with H.

"The worst thing you ever did to me was to leave me. The best thing you ever did for me was to let me see I was better off without you. "

this can be true....however...maybe it could be 'better off without you.... while I needed to heal'

you have come through so much. You seem so clear on what you need and want and so positive that no matter what, you will be happy. You know it. and you know you know it.

I want so much for you to be happy. To find what you need. I hope that you find it with your H if thats what you want. But don't let fear guide you now. You know love. let it lead you.

love you SS.