Hi.. i will be divorced in less than a week. not because i didnt try to save my marriage. probly cuz i tried alot of things at the wrong time. or because it was doomed. who knows. the fact of the matter is, it is ending. my W doesnt love me and i am ok with that. every interaction that has to happen(kids stuff, mutual bills) usually goes bad. she has a bad attitude and is still blaming me for all her problems. even ones that happened after she left. i am not trying to make her seem bad. it just is like that. she is a good mom and a smart woman. never has taken any responsibility for her actions ever, and i see that more from a distant perspective.
i am trying to move on. i am doing what i believe i need to do to become a better person on a daily basis. i did not give up on my marriage. i just knew i finally have had enough. i stand for marriage. healthy happy ones. not dysfunctional degrading ones. i am my own person and i am enjoying being who i want to be, not who she wants me to be. I am having some issues dealing with some feelings from time to time. then i remember my focus excercises i was working on with kaffe. they still help. i dont get stuff right away. i can be dense at times. what i have learned here so far is, no matter what i can figure it out. i have gotten alot of help and support on this forum in my short time here. i am very greatful for that.
