mad I'm so effing p*ssed off right now! grrr... I could roundkick a car!

H decided not to go to the doctor today because he says he needs to make more work hours because he has a lot of debt. He just left to work, but last night he came into my bed and he cuddled me but he wanted to go further than a cuddle and I told him that I as much I wanted to, it was not a good idea right now. He asked me run my fingernails on his back so he could fall asleep. He fell asleep and I couldn't sleep anymore, I was just watching him snoring away and I started to cry quietly and I left the bedroom. A few minutes later I went back to sleep and he cuddled me. When H left to work he gave me a peck on the lips and a hug and told me he was going to do some errands after work and be back home around 2pm. I can't even go for a run today because it s so windy and it's raining!