A New Path - I just left my wife

[tpc1977]

The roller coaster of emotions are awful. Just awful.

I can't have her go to the funeral with me today. The pain is still fresh. My feelings for her are still too strong. I text her last night and told her. She was staying at her boyfriend's house. My daughter called me from the house when she stopped by to pick up some clothes to go stay with friends. She worried about our dog being left alone all night.

Something about it all hurt me real deep. So I text her and told her I should go alone.

Why can I not stick with going dark long enough to make it work? I hurt so bad without her. I think I'm helping the situation by staying close to her but I'm not. Not at all. I need help.