Alright! Haven't posted in ahwile & figured I would just say a quick Suppo needs to get his head out of his Arse and get back in the battle!
Had pretty decent appt. today with IC, who stated to me that I need to allow myself to feel & process the hurt, but not let it consume me. Amongst a lot of other chat of course. She also recommended possibly getting on some meds temporarily, becuase she stated what I have is situational depresssion. I haven't slept since the events unfolded Saturday & have lost 10 more pounds. I was always naturally lean & in shape for being 6'3", but If you saw you me know then you would realize that I honestly can't afford to lose more weight. Down to about 162, which is way below my norm.
IC told me that it is not always the LBS that pushes the WAW unto an A. She stated a lot of what we already knew etc. But it was good to here again that I am not completely at fault for others decisions.
Took kids & d-12's friend to Varsity football game tonight & had a really good time, so my PMA improved fairly well for now at least. God has been my solice and rock through this, but I firmly believe the kids have been a lot larger impact on keeping me focussed & happier.
I have a lot more to journal/review/probe for outside perspectives.
Wife coming at me with all kids of crazy Venom probes just like Chatter said in previous response early on. It's like, now that she has been exposed "TRULY EXPOSED", she has been very pushy about texts. Almost like she thinks I am know going to get vindictive with things (i.e. papers, finances, etc.). But that is just not me.
Starsky said awhile back & repeat it often on here, that we truly don't know what goes on in the Wayward little spouses head.
