Afa, my H went through the same thing. He said he wouldn't feel "free" unless he could date other women during our separation. I initially said no way, that I would want a divorce if that was the case. So in April he said he felt the same and wanted a D. Since then, he hasn't dated anyone...I wonder if your W is just looking for a reaction when she says she wants to date. I would try to avoid this type of conversation. If she starts it, you can switch the topic or say you have to go or whatever. Don't give her the chance to say stuff like that to you. Yes, mornings and evenings are the toughest. I've had a rough time the whole week. My H has been MIA for a week already, for no apparent reason other than we got really close a couple of weeks ago when we went for the hot air balloon ride. He wouldn't stop holding me and the whole day was like nothing wrong was happening. After that, he pretty much pulled away completely. It's the whole touch and go thing, but I thought we were over that. I wonder if he spoke with anyone. This is hard.
I often feel like giving up, and then I feel like I have no purpose or future. I know, it's not true, but that's how I feel. I make myself snap out of it, but it returns... Have a good night. Let's wait for a much better day tomorrow. Tori
