Hi Antonia! Sorry to read of your continuing issues. It's so hard to be alone, but on the other hand, better than being with someone whose not completely interested in you, as you are with him. [Deep breath, after long sentence.] I've also just gone through letting go ... my H, in my case, after 7 years living under the same roof, but in separate bedrooms. He wasn't here all the time, so I got used to being alone.
I realized, at last, that I wanted our M to work, I wanted to be with H, or someone I could have a good R with ... BUT I don't need it. I have to be myself, and be accepted as such, with the good and the bad. NEED makes a slave of you, WANT sets you free (you can take it or leave it). "I am free ... free at last" (thank you Martin Luther King).
It takes a lot of hard work to mold yourself into someone else's idea of perfection. In time, the mold will break 'cause it'll uncomfortable. Just be who you are, and I bet things will work out just fine.
Just my 2c worth.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
