Its so hard to learn to take responsibility for what we did contribute but not own what we had nothing to do with. In Alanon they say just keep your side of the street clean.
My H was gas lighting me for months. Blaming me for everything, making me think I was crazy because I was upset that he was leaving me and our girls. During those few months because my side of the street was not clean it was easy for me to be confused. Now that my side of the street is clean, its so much more obvious when he brings his trash over and just dumps it.
I highly recommend alanon even if you are not dealing with someone that is drinking.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13