Thanks Tori, your words do help. I'm sorry that last year was a bad year. I think a big part of the message that was conveyed to her via the email and a part of our conversation was that I'm not going to sit around and wait for her endlessly. Allowing her to trample or use me as she sees fit. I just need to continue backing that up with actions. During our talk she told me the "i need to date" line. I told her I didn't want to date anyone,YET. Also, fortunately for me, when I don't bring up OM, she normally offers up info herself. I just remind myself not to believe what she says. E.g. Last Sunday she had genuine feelings for him, last might she said it was becoming more of a friend thing. So who knows. I fairly certain she doesn't. Time will twll, and is on my side to work on me.
Side note, anyone else experience mornings a little tougher? The whole such tugging at your heart til you truly wake up and getting going about tour day?
