I decided to move over here because I find that my sitch and my threads aren't about busting my divorce any more.
Quick recap of my story so far: I had an EA about 2.5 years ago. Very shortlived but enough to make me think something was wrong. Tried to work on things. He never thought anything was wrong. He was emotionally unavailable during a miscarriage. In Sept 2011 I started feeling like something needed to change I pushed for MC, he was not responsive. I started going to IC. I finally told him I thought it was over in Nov 2011. He never fought for me didn't seem to care. He later told me he cried every day in Jan. In Feb he met someone and has been with her ever since. In Feb/March I tried to convince him to work on things again and continued to try to DB thru May. In May, he told me he was moving in with her. I decided just to hope on having a friendship. Since then I've been on quite a few first dates, dated one guy during the month of August. We're filing this month and it should be final in 90 days.
I feel like in this moment in my life is the best time ever. Does that make any sense? I have finally understood my own self worth. I'm an amazing person. And I really like me. I think I'll look back one day and wonder why was I trying to cling to that. I've never looked back on my life and thought everything was really sh*t after X happened so I know this will be the same.
I have great career prospects. I've lost 51 pounds since the split. I've taken up running, became a great cook, learned to release control, accept life for what it is, and live in the present.
So I'm joining you all here to survive the Big D. Sometimes things happen that p*ss me off and it's not because I want him back...it's because well it's part of the process isn't it?
