Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

Thank you, timbits. I have a picture of us, my favorite, on the dining room table. It is from early on in the relationship. I see how happy we were. I would like to feel that way again, but also don't want to fool myself. I also look at it and wonder what happen to those 2 people.

I took D out to dinner tonight and she picked the restaurant. I tried to enjoy it as much as I could. She sent her dad a text to call her and he said he would in a little bit when he was done with dinner. That was over an hour ago. The last time he went away and told her that, he never called her. Because of the fact that he is traveling without her and will not travel with us, she told me today that she does not want to go on any trips with me without her dad.

When H left this morning, I asked him to let me know that he made it ok. He said he would, but I am not going to hold my breath. He is so far into himself that he cannot see beyond his own face right now. I cannot imagine that the guys he is with haven't checked in at some point.

I am going to read tonight and try to enjoy the rest of my evening. I am trying not to think about him. I know it will get better each day, and then when he returns, I will have already gotten used to him not being around.