Wow that's alot to go through. Although after being together for 3 years prior to getting M'd, I'm not sure why you think there wasn't enough time to know each other.
From what I can see, the OM could be a form of escape from all the stress in your lives. Have the two of you ever attended any type of crisis counseling? It think that's what needs to happen first.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.