Sorry, broken - you cannot thank me for something that you didn't take from me or from anyone else, as far as i can see.

I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt that you are really really hurting and sort of blind right now to where you are in your mind

hurt and fear do terrible terrible things to people - well, our WAS's are shining examples of that.

but i did want to mention something that really sticks out for me here - your going on and on about unconditional love - you really mention it a lot, and i do wonder if you have any idea what it means to love unconditionally.

I really do hope that what you write here is just "letting out your frustrations" because if that's any indication of the way you might be interacting with the people in your life - then you do have some work to do on yourself.

i could barely read your post, there was so much negativity in there. as for the letter to your wife - it might do you more good to send it to yourself. if you want her to do certain things - like
"do the right thing" - then maybe you can expect the same from yourself first.

doing the right thing for you would probably mean calming down and being nicer all around -

i have found that whenever i am ready to point the finger at my h, guess what - i'm doing something similar on some level.

i really do wish you luck, broken - the luck that maybe by chance you will wake up to where you really are - and be able to heal and nurture the person who is really there underneath all that pain

zig

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"