No responses on this thread..Maybe I should try a new post or post in a different forum.

After work I went to the salon for a mani and pedi. I really needed the pick me up. H called and wanted to know what was for dinner. Since I wasn't home yet he suggested one of his favorite restaurants. During dinner he kept referring to "us" during the conversation. When I would say "me" or "you", he took notice and pointed that out. I smiled during our dinner and he noticed that as well. He said, it felt like I was laughing at him. I am just so hurt over what is happening that I have to smile to keep from crying sometimes. He actually thinks that he is going to have a wife and mistress at the same time sickens me to the core. The entire time during dinner I invisioned CHEATER-LIAR-ADULTERER all over his face. He did not resemble the man I fell in love with 15 years ago. I don't know, but I feel like resentment is starting to set in. I love my husband so much but he is swept up in a FOG of fantasy land and no one can get through to him. After dinner we went to Walmart and got new bike seats. He said he wants "US" to join a new gym and ride our bikes together in the afternoons.

This morning, I noticed he was fully undressed in the bed. I did not acknowledge it as I had to prepare for work. Usually, I would play around with him and we'd ML but I was not feeling it. All I picture in my head was H & the OW. He hugged me and I hugged him but then I quickly hopped out of bed. I could tell he was sulking and I wanted to be their with him but I just couldn't. We didn't say much before going to work. I feel it's all going down hill. Is this the way it usually works for DB. I want him to notice that I'm backing off but am I pushing him away as well. My husband thrives on attention and if I don't give it too him, I'm sure the OW would be more that happy to oblige.

I feel like he somehow thinks that I'm going to accept his occasional flings and just go on with our lives as it nothing is going on. This is AWFUL

M: 42
H: 38
M:15yrs
Bomb May 2012
H/EA&PA
H will not end A w/OW