I know 25 isn't convinced about the wisdom behind keeping a daily countdown for my plan of action timeline but after consideration, I think that doing so keeps everything in perspective. When I get depressed or impatient, I just look at the ridiculously short time I've been at it and how much more time I've got and I sober up again.
This is a late update for yesterday. No contact at all from either side. It got me a bit down but I think it might be the withdrawal symptoms. I got home last night and D8 was sleeping in the landlady's room. I brought her back to our room and she woke up and started crying, saying how she missed her family. I had had a few drinks and although not drunk in any way, I was very emotional and unable to control my own tears. I cried silently, making sure D8 didn't notice, but I think she did. I hugged her and we prayed for W and thanked God for all the things we have going for us, and for each other. She's a champion, that strong little 8-year-old girl. She again made me promise never to give up, and I did.
Inside, I'm tired but I know I've got to find the strength to push on for as long as it takes.
I'm getting busy these days so it makes it easier to get through the days but the down times are still brutally painful.
I'm working on it and I'm sure in a week, my PMA will be much better than it is now. I believe in my plan. I believe in my W. I believe in my family. I just have to start believing in me.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
