I think I see the picnic!

[2chiquitos]

Thank you Brook! You're absolutely right! Keep the focus on me!

H n I had a "talk." It started off heated but turned into a talk.

I did the unthinkable. I snooped through his cell and saw a call to OW. But I reacted different this time. I didn't fall apart.

Me-"you don't have to worry. I won't take the kids from you. You can continue to come over and see the kids but I am letting you go."

H reacted in a very different way this time. He looked worried. He said he used to be afraid that I would take the kids but he knows I won't react that way anymore. He said, "You're different now."

He said something that I can't get out of my head. "Please be patient. Give me some time." He said he no longer has the same relationship with her, blah blah blah. Then he said something else that I thought was interesting. "Haven't you noticed that our talks are no longer just about the kids! I look forward to sharing things with you and talking to you about so many other things."

He has noticed that we have grown closer and is working on himself but it is taking him time.

For some reason I feel free of my sitch. The fact that he recognizes my changes and is worried about loosing me makes me feel very confident. I used to think I'm not worth coming back to. Instead, I think, I'm too good to come back to!