Rough: thanks for the kind words, its good to know im not in this alone. While I don't know everything about the 'how' she wants to be loved, I do know for sure that 'acts of service' are really big in her book. I never thought much of that, but I have learned enough to know that she wants more help from me and also that she wants to be heard. Not necessarily have me talk so much as have me listen.
Apart from that, I really don't wanna guess too much because if there is ever a chance for us to sit and talk about it im simply going to ask her. Im tired of trying to figure out what I 'should' be doing for her by hit and miss, if we ever work through and try to remain married I want her to tell me "I feel loved when........." And maybe its 20 things, but I want to hear them all. I could beat myself up every day for not doing that before, but the fact is I can't change the past but I can make a brighter future.