Accuray- thanks for you reply. 1-2 years wow that is a long time. I guess I was dreaming when I was hoping for 6 months!! But when you love someone this much, I will do the time. The detacement is very hard right now. But I will say I am enjoying exercising again. Right now its the only thing I look forward to during the day. In fact I am entering in to a obstacle type race on Sunday which should be alot of fun. This is the start of my 180 plan. I also went clothes shopping last weekend which is new for me. The W did notice the new clothes but did not say that I looked good or if she liked. But it felt good to buy some new digs. I have noticed since starting the 180 and detaching that she has been more attentive and talking to me more. Nothing serious just "How has your day gone" or children topics. She also went to a BBQ with me last weekend which surprised me that she went. You would think that if she is really was moving out and is done with me, that she would not have gone with me. I told her that I appreciated her going, I hope that wasnt breaking the 180 plan by showing emotion? She also is applying for a new job today and on Sunday she did ask me how she should fill out her W4 on taxes. Which again I thought was strange if she is walking away. Are these baby steps in the right direction? Or am I being to hopeful for anything postive? I really believe that she does not want to leave but she has shut all emotions and logical thoughts off. "One Day at a Time" is what I keep telling myself.
