Paint it Black (OH Heck No, Paint it PINK!)

[WenikiTiki]

I am having a funny week. I just want to be somewhere, anywhere else. I don't want to have to deal with all this stuff.

STBXH is back today. And seeing him just makes me so sad. I miss the old us. And seems to have moved on to OW so easily. And I'm just some sort of annoyance to him.

OW posted some cryptic pink sign comment on her alt page that said: "Someone else is happy with less than what you have". And her comment on it was: "Be grateful... Ungrateful people, eventually they lose what they take for granted, what they don't appreciate" (sic)

So in her opinion I wasn't grateful enough for all he gave me. So it is ok for her to take it from me?

I am really angered by her acting like I asked for more and more and that I didn't appreciate what I did have. He and I were a team for 33 years. We went away to college together, joined the air force together, and built our lives together. Remodeled every house we ever lived in, together. And took our money and carefully built it up.

We also sailed that boat from San Francisco to Hawaii together. I have always been a fully cooperating, hard working part of the team. My mother and sister both feel like I have taken my wants and desires and put them aside to always let him have what he wanted.

Like the old RV, the jeeps, the motorcycles, the new RV, the little boat, the trawler, the jet ski, the mountain bikes, the other jet ski, the catamaran, and me having planned and executed every trip or move we ever made.

So anyway, my take on the pink sign that says: "Someone else is happy with less than what you have" is this: Yep, she had better be, because I'm getting half. So she will never get the whole that was he and I.

So I'm glad to hear she will be happy with less. And wish I could be a fly on the wall when she figures out that she can stand on her head and spit out gold nuggets and he probably won't be happy. But that is okay, I'm tired of chasing his dreams.

He wanted to sail around the world with me. I wonder what hair-brained plans he is making with her? He was talking RV, again, to me on one of his laps between us. So maybe that will be the dream.

Just thinking and venting by typing, it makes no difference to me. I'm living my own dream from now on.