read your post sd - time to go read your goals and stop the spinning before it reaches a speed where it's not all that easy to slow down.
so what i all on this list you have to get done before P arrives?
are they on that list because you want to impress her in some way?
i ask, because that's what i did for a long time - always trying to give h the impression that i was totally with it, on it and had my [censored] togehter.
i finally stopped - it's bl@@dy exhausting.
only do the things that you need to do for YOU - not for her. she can take it or leave it.
your starting to feel overwhelmed by that list is a good sign that you aren't necessarily doing those things for you. so go back to your goals, read them as often as you can - actually reading them, will help tremendously in centering you again.
and make it First Priority - over everything else that you will center and ground yourself before taking care of anything else or anyone els
you can do this sweet girl - you're there, but you maybe just don't quite know it
i read something that really helped me from Beattie's book - that we have to learn to trust that we will make it through the ordeal and come out fine - and i realized that i hadn't felt that yet - and it's time to start believing that we ARE strong enough to make it through this
(((((( ))))))
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
