So now im faced with two realities: #1 I may not ever have her again and must move on. #2 I'll be alone for the first time in 15 years and it scares the crap out of me. Since I was 15 i've been in a relationship almost continually and quite honestly I suck at being alone. Im a social person and need that daily interaction, I need to care about someone and have someone care about me. Crap I just said need and somehow gotta get over that...but want is surely true. And then my insecurities creep in and tell me that I won't be able to find anyone that would want me.....and if I do i'll have to settle because no one with her qualities would be interested.
Im so there with you. But at the same time - I dont WANT anyone other than my X. Shoot - I dont even have any advise for you because Im so there with you. And maybe I dont really miss being with anyone - I miss being with X. Bottom line.
M:43/ H:39 T:12/ M:9 S8, D15 M affair(one night): 2/09 M EA: 2/12-7/12 D:6/7/12 H: GF since 7/24/12
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