glad you are focused on enjoying this trip with your son. i think you are exactly where you need to be..
progress is never a straight line shooting up (although i wish it were often)..it is full of ups and downs, twists and turns..
to me, what you are experiencing means that you are really growing, there is so much self awareness that it can be overwhelming and lead to confusion which can bring up doubt and fear.. but that is where the unconditional friendliness with ourselves that pema talks about so much comes in..so that we can relax with what is in order to move forward...
so perhaps your trip can not only be about enjoying S but also about enjoying you, zig! i wish you much peace and relaxation and legos on your trip!!
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
Enjoy your trip and your time with family. (I visit Houston on occasion myself).
My son and I have played chess here and there as well. It finally got to the point I really had to pay attention or he'd take me easily. Kind of a fun progression to see.
Good realization to walk before running. Take the time you need to work through it all. There's no rush. ((Zig))
Me:45, W:45 S:16 D:13 M:22, T:25 Bomb: July 2010 Putting finances in order for "D" Continue to live in same home-separate rooms
Zig i'm so happy to read that your traveling with S went well. I was nervous about traveling by myself this year, too, but it was such a great confidence builder when I looked back on it. Good for you for deciding to focus completely on S. He will be able to look back on this trip later as a great experience with you during a time of uncertainty for him.
Hope things are still going well.
As for your spinning in yourself earlier, don't be too hard on yourself, I think it's part of the process.
i am happy to read that you had a good trip with S and that you will be completely focused on S. I am sure it will be a most memorable and fun trip for him. that is SO special. you really are giving him a gift.
take it easy on yourself. you have been through a lot of emotional dissection lately. take care of yourself for awhile and enjoy the moment now.
love you ((((((( ))))))))
will keep the blanket waiting for you.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
I hope that you enjoy your time with S and your parents. It will be good for you to be away and have some quality time with your family. It will also help you to detach a little bit more. I understand how difficult dementia can be, so my thoughts are with you.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
miss you too zig....i hope you are having a wonderful time. :-)
waiting for you...... (((( )))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
Beginners mind is something I remind myself of a lot bit just in my sitch but in life. Work, etc. I over think small details and then I think hang in there are so many options. You are ready to fully enjoy all the work you've done and I hope you do that. Big hugs!
