Carnac - you all are so right. I guess I thought the little things that I was doing were working to be honest. I would usually get a good reaction from those things. I do know I cant continue to do those things - because those things and the little bit of reaction that I am getting is driving me insane. I hate playing games. And this is what it feels as if Im doing.

I am in NC today. I was as soon as I sent that last text to him. I also know the comment to him that I was going to laugh when they failed didnt make him happy either. I cant take it back. It was very unlike the person that I am. ALL of this is unlike me. I am not the jealous, insecure person that I am portraying right now. I never have been. So why now? I wish I could be happy for him - I really do. But its hard to be happy for something that you want to be a part of.

I will take your advise to heart. And Im sure Ive said that before, but I really feel as if Im done chasing this time. Done.

M:43/ H:39
T:12/ M:9
S8, D15
M affair(one night): 2/09
M EA: 2/12-7/12
D:6/7/12
H: GF since 7/24/12

God,Family, and the Green Bay Packers. - Vince Lombardi