"X telling me he was done was all that I could handle... she must make him happy is my thought."
Yes she does. She also hasn't betrayed him as many times as you have. Sad but true. Deal with it.
"He would have never walked away this easily before. Never."
And he didn't. But the problem is that you kept breaking that trust over and over again.
Now suddenly, just because you've "seen the light" doesn't mean that he will or needs to. You are going to have to accept that all of life doesn't revolve around YOUR schedule. Now it's his time.
He was the betrayed one. He is the only one that will know whether or not to heal with you. From his POV, you've shown that you continue to be selfish. You wanted to have an EA and didn't stop it, then now when he has someone that makes him happy, you are doing everything you can to belittle their relationship. If the roles were reversed, how would you see it? Be honest.
I told you it would take time, patience and alot of love and understanding. Right now you haven't shown any of that.
You've got to let him make his own decision on his own timeline. No more thinking of only yourself. Then you can see what happens.
God doesn't only give YOU what you want, when you want it. He balances out the wrong. And throughout this, who has been in the wrong? Right now, your H needs this and deserves this.
This may not be what you want to hear, but it is the truth.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
