I am truly sorry for what happened to you but I wouldn't worry too much right now. IMO, you've been pursuing too much and not detaching enough and you got hurt in the process.
I know my life s%cks right now and I don't feel quite confident enough about my own sitch to give advice but here is one thing I think you've got to do, which is where I think you've messed up a bit (no worried though, there is still plenty of time to make things right again - Time, that is all we have).
Open your DR and read the LRT section again. Read it an try and stick to it. There is a bit in there on page 129/130 that talks about the "second possible response from your spouse" It tells you at the top of page 130 how to behave if he's positively responsive to your LRT. That is where I think you messed up. You tried to push the nut towards the squirrel and it ran away. You need to be patient.
Read the list of 37 Do's and Don'ts again. If you can't find it, let me know, I'll post it for you.
Believe me I know how exciting it is whenever they take a step closer but don't get fooled by it. He is also confused. He likes what he sees and hears but then he doesn't like that he likes it and pulls back. He doesn't want to look like a fool. After all didn't he just spend all that money on a Divorce? it 's got to come from him. You just make yourself the best person you can (and that doesn't include sending emails/texts like you just did) and let him come all the way. He'll get closer, pull back a bit, come a bit closer and pull back a bit again and eventually, for every step backwards he'll make 1 1/2 forward and he'll take that nut from your hand. That's how you get a squirrel to eat out of your hand. You got to gain his trust, little by little, patiently. No moves forward. Let him come all the way. I know you can do it because you have, over the last week.
Take a break, regroup, plan your strategy and get back in the game. You got that close because he's still interested. He's just scared right now.
Cheers my girl. Take care of yourself!
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
