Had supper at her place tonite. It was an excellent meal.
She was a little more distant. I asked her if everything was ok. She said "Everything is ok. Its just that you crossed the line last nite. I am adjusting well. S is adjusting well. S is alot like me and we adapt well to change. I like the current situation. I see S often enough. I have time to deal with work. I have my own space. I like my life."
I told her "I am happy for you. I want you to be happy."
So she re-established her boundaries. I got too close and she backed away.
I have tried to read many things into her statements. Mainly implications that she thinks I am not adjusting well. But really, who knows. That is probably because of my inner self. The realization that I think I should be doing better with this. But what does doing better look like for me? I will think on this.
It has been 7 months since the bomb. No D papers. No talk of it. I still have the gift of time.
I will continue to stand. Continue to learn detachment. Continue to DB. Continue to better myself.
I feel a mixture of high and low. Neither are strong emotions though.
