Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

I'm so mad right now I'm shaking. It will take all I have to not unload tonight.

I texted H earlier to see if I should buy eggs for Sunday breakfast. He texted back that he would be gone the next 2 weekends. I texted I knew about next week but not the week after. Where was he going. No answer. So I called him and he says oh, some friends called him this am to see if he wanted to fly to the bahamas with them and he said yes. I told him that I had plans that weekend. He then said he had to go because he was busy

I sent him a text that said I would appreciate it if you would check with me before you make trips. I had plans. No answer.

H told D he would take her to pick up a present this afternoon. She called him and he said he would call the person and he would call her back. I headed to the airport to drop her off. H is climbing on the motorcycle, never called D back. I told him that I need to run errands and D didn't want to go with me. He said he worked all day and was tired and was going for a ride. I worked most of the day as well.

This may be enough for me. I'm tired of being a doormat. Between the last 2 weeks and the rest of the month, he has plans/trips all but 1 weekend. None of which he talked to me about before he planned them. And I am supposed to GAL how? No wonder I am miserable and a bitch. I can get out and enjoy myself. And he wants a D? How will he do all this and have the 50/50 custody he wants?

I am so negative on DB right now. The trip I took in August was the first one that didn't include a trip to my family's in over 3 years. I haven't taken a trip with H in who knows how long. 2006?

I don't know if I should cry or scream right now.