Hello all! So I took the liberty of moving his toothbrush back to the toothbrush holder the other day, and so far it has stayed there. smile Since I last posted he has been saying hi or good morning to me again, but not usually goodnight. I've been doing my best to keep myself busy, I have started helping my dad with his concession trailer (you know selling french fries and stuff), I do that on Saturday's and did some today.

H wasn't home at all yesterday, left early didn't get home till after 11. I know he had a match and I would guess he was with his family after since it's a holiday weekend, but I have no way of knowing. I also don't get myself worked up about not knowing anymore either. I figure God can handle it. I actually hear a great quote on the one radio station often, "Nothing is going to happen to you today that you and God can't handle together." I like that thought, keeps me from panicking and worrying (and we all know I'm a recovering worrier). grin

The strange thing is H is being kind of normal with me today, which doesn't usually happen when he's been with his family. He came into the bathroom while I was in the shower this morning... Kept saying he hoped he wasn't making me late for anything. I said no. In an effort to stay semi-mysterious I didn't say it's fine I'm working for dad. When I got back a few hours later H had washed the dishes that were in the sink, brought up the sheets I had in the dryer and.... wait for it.... he vacuumed the rug!!! I thanked him for doing all of that and told him I appreciated it, he of course said it was no big deal. I was filling up the candy dish on the coffee table with some candy I just bought and he looked over and said again, I hope I didn't make you late this morning. So I said, nope, it's ok I know the boss at my super part- time job (super as in minimal hours is what I was implying with that, don't know if he got that or not). He didn't say anything. I mean I know I had to smell like a walking order of french fries, I'm sure he could put 2 and 2 together to figure out where I was. LOL I later realized he actually unloaded the dishwasher too!! I went back in and told him I didn't realize it earlier and thanked him for it as well. Again, acted like it was no big deal.

I told him I got him some of his favorite cereal and grape Propel at the store. He said I didn't have to do that. I said I know, but I wanted to (he says that EVERY time). He kind of sighed but didn't say anything. Hey whatever, I'm going to continue to ACT AS IF everything is going to be ok, and I'm still his wife whether he wants to act like it or not.

I've done a lot of thinking this weekend, also a lot of praying, getting closer to God, which is what I've needed to do for a long time, also started (and almost finished ) with a GREAT book, Choose Joy: Because Happiness Isn't Enough, by Kay Warren. I'm really enjoying the book, it's giving me a lot to think about, and is helping me in my growing this unexpected journey has brought about. grin

I had a random question, that may or may not have an answer. I was wondering, due to the childhood issues they need to deal with is that why they may spend more time with their family now, when before they were pretty indifferent to it?? I'm just curious. I think it's weighing on me because H's mom is such a judgmental B, and it hurts to know that he wants to spend time there, but I get pushed aside and treated like crap when we've been so close all of these years (which I get MLC = spouse gets crapped on), I just don't understand the family part....

Also, H's dad texted me the other day, apparently he had a heart attack and is now in a wheel chair. I didn't tell H since he made it abundantly clear he wants nothing to do with his father. Which is sad, but his choice. I will continue to pray for the healing of their relationship before it is too late.