Didn't see much of W today and had a few depressing thoughts (about W+OM) while driving around but kept telling myself that 2 years=730 days and that I was just on Day 4 so I needed to calm down. I notice that if I look at the big picture like this it usually makes me smile. 2 years is nothing if it gets me and W another 30 together, especially if I don't spend the 2 years "waiting" for W but working on myself.
No calls from W all day. I met a friend in the morning and discussed a possible business partnership then I had a lesson. I got back home at 4 pm and the car wasn't there so I expected W to be gone with D8 but as I walked in she was there (which meant she probably got a lift from OM - which still always gets to me a bit). I kept my cool and all was pleasant. W mentioned that they were planning to go to the pool and asked me if I would join them. I really wanted to and spent a few moments considering it but in the end told her that I had some work to do.
W and D8 left and were gone for about 2 hours. When they got back W immediately got ready to go and while she was getting ready, her phone started ringing but she just let it ring without answering. I guessed it was OM, probably waiting to pick her up at the end of the street and again, it got to me. I left the room and went to prepare the meal for D8 and myself. As I was in the kitchen, keeping busy, W came to say goodbye. I replied courteously enough but I know I'd lost my cool and I'm sure it showed.
I still got a lot of work to do on this plan of action. I'll do better next time.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
