Clearly you two are still connected, aside from your son together. I have heard many stories of people getting divorced and then getting back together again, but the challenge will be inside YOU to fix what needs fixing.
I know that I have a lot of deep issues with feeling attractive which is what fueled my EA. I should have just gone to therapy instead but I'm clearly not that highly evolved. Hindsight is 20/20, isn't it?
It's easy to miss your XH when he is out of town and out of communication with you - and natural to worry. One of the things you are going to have to work on is just letting that go, as hard as that is.
Enjoy your Labor Day today.
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page