You said that in the initial months of your separation that it probably worked to your benefit not knowing about the A. Once again, I 100% agree with you, I feel the same. I don’t know if having a confirmation of an A would change what I am doing, it’s too hard for me to tell because I haven’t been through it, so I just don’t know. Yes, the pain of such information would be VERY hard. You said it’s the hardest thing you dealt with. I can’t even imagine Denver, unless I go through it. There’s a decent chance that I will eventually have to go through that unimaginable and brutal realization.
Yeah, I agree. At BD, W told me she couldn't be with any other man. She just needed to be alone. I believed her and I have to say it did help me get used to the idea of us being separated. By the time she told me about OM, I'd hardened a bit and managed to take it reasonably well. Don't take me wrong. Living everyday with this in my life is really the toughest thing I have ever done. There is not a day when it doesn't tear my heart apart and when I don't feel physical pain about it. Thankfully, I've since learned to deal with these thoughts and it does get a bit easier in the end, until the next sign that W is or is going to be with him. Then it starts all over again. It's tough but watching my family falling apart isn't a walk in the park either so we do what we have to do to save our families, marriages and selves.
Good luck to you mate!
Rah, Rah, Rah, class of 2012!!!
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
