Where do I go from here?

[Hopeful84]

Thanks Gabby and I agree time to put myself first, and not even really worry about him.

I am not ready for a divorce, but agree whole heartedly we are not working on anything as long as he has her, regardless in what capacity.

I started thinking of some new things I want to do--I have always wanted to buy a bicycle off of Craiglist to go on bike ride, or our city offers bikes you can rent to cycle around downtown san antonio. I also wanted to get into swimming, or they have crossfit classes down the street- a little hefty compared to my gym membership, but I will meet new people and that can't hurt to have more friends.

I actually am glad when he is gone, I get time to myself-- its just when he shows up and I am reminded of the hard place our life is in, and thats the sucky part.

Just doing my on thing for now... and I do think with him not going to work, we are really not going to see eachother all that much anyway... but still asked him not to come to the house after I was off work, only when I wasn't there...