So H has sent an email for us to talk or meet tomorrow when he gets back from the trip with OW. Things he wants to say & ask.

I'm ready for the conversation whatever way it goes! If he went and had a wonderful time and wants to cut contact with me OR if he really felt like it wasn't the same and wants us to keep talking OR whatever it is he wants to say/ask...No hopes, no expectations...well, trying not to have hope...

On another note, I had a great chat with another couple who are friends of us both last night. Their advice for me is to be patient and consistent. And NOT to cancel the trip I booked for my birthday. Which I booked hoping he might want to work on M and that we would go together...I'm not ready to go on this particular trip alone - but I can cancel up to 4pm day of - so no worries...