Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

Last night was very nice and very out of the ordinary. I am not overthinking this one and just very happy that it happened.

H was pretty late getting home for dinner and didn't let me know he would be late. I prepared filet mignon, kale chips and pierogies with pesto sauce, which is pretty much his favorite meal. I didn't say anything. He actually sat down and waited for me to serve him instead of getting it himself. Again, I just bit my lip and made small talk with him. I felt pretty disrespected.

After dinner, H was listening to Genesis on youtube. He told me about how much he liked some of the versions of the songs. I got up to get something and kissed him on the head when I walked by and he did not pull away.

When we went to bed, he held my hand for a few moments. I got up and went to his side of the bed (a Rottweiler and a Doberman Pinscher are in the middle). Usually he would push me away and tell me to let him sleep. He did not. He let me fall asleep next to him. At some point I woke up and he had his arm around me. I had to get up in the middle of the night to get my mouthguard and he rolled over to where I had been laying. I got on the other side and curled up next to him again, and again he did not push me away.

I honestly cannot remember the last time that we slept next to each other like that. It's probably been over 15 years. I've been longing for him to hold me close to him in his arms.

I don't know if I should say something to him or just let it ride and see what happens. I don't want to call too much attention to it but also would like him to know how much I enjoy being in his arms.