the dating part stinks. i dont have any expectations yet i feel wierd about it. i dont like my kids being able to know i am talking to other women. i do not bring any around them. some women get wierd about it, so i stop talking to them. thats why i am not pursuing 75% of the date offers. i have no timeline. i am in no hurry to be serious with anyone. someday maybe. right now i am busy being me. sounds selfish, but thats what it is.
the tattoo is big for me. when i met her, she didnt know i had any tattoos as one are visible when i have clothes on. i have always been on the alternative side..lol tattoos, mohawks, good music. i had a shaved head when we met. we started dating and she would make comments about how i was a little wierd. then she got pregnant on accident. i did te right thing and married her. we were happy, yet i think it was forced alot on both parts. the only tattoo i got while we were together was a cover up. she always said she didnt like freaks. lol i lost so much of myself trying to make her love me. now i am free. free to be me. i have been through hell and am still standing. so the phoenix will be appropriate. she makes comments whenever she sees me. doesnt like my ear rings. my clothes are ugly etc. i dont even care. i laugh. a part of me thinks she is jealous. i know who i am and she doesnt have a clue who she is.
life is funny. stuff you want to happen doesnt and stuff you never thought could happen does.
