Definitely use this to strengthen your resolve! You have made mistakes in your M, as we all have, but that doesn't mean you need to sit around & take this kind of disrespect.
There is a huge difference in "WANTING" your W to come back & "NEEDING" your W to come back.
Time for you to get out there and build your confidence back up! Definitely remain a Gentleman in this entire fiasco (sitch), and maybe going DARK is one of those 180's you need to do in order to regain some self-confidence.