Slightly hopeful optimist..

[Just A Guy]

I have figures out today that my form of communication is to NOT communicate. Lol I am constantly worried about "the outcome" or the repricussions. So instead I tend to just, well do nothing... This ends up being sorta a cowardly thing in some sitchs which is horrible.

Take this discussion about the levels o affection. I know have to have the conversation yet I fear the answer so I have not had the discussion yet. Attractive? I think not...

So I took a big step in the right direction today. I needed to communicate unacceptable work relations between myself and the other manager and just did it.. Normally It would have been me just brushing it off hoping it didn't happen again but not this time.

Now I need to have this conversation about the levels of affection and whether she is holding back and if so why. So that not only can I prove to her I am willing to bring things up which I would like to know even though the answer might be rough but also prove to myself on a regular basis that holding back on uncomfortable conversations will ultimately only hurt ME!!

Wish I had known this 4 years ago. I think the passion might still be alive if I had shown more cajones... Oh well hind sight bla bla bla.. Time to make the change I want to make and do it forever.