Her apartment was spotless. Not all messy like it was on the 4th.
She seems more like herself. A little giggly, a little sassy. Just comfortable. No sign of the depressed, long face that I have been given the last few months.
I was a little uneasy being there. But I settled down.
S didn't want to hash out all the aspects of his first day at K. He answered a few questions with short answers until he got bored with it and wanted to play Guess Who. He shared enough to put my mind at ease that he is having fun and proud of himself for being in big kids school.
During a phone call today W said "Maybe you and S would like to come over Monday afternoon and play at the pool?".
So W is initiating more contact. This week anyway. Everything is light, friendly, and "normal".
I still wonder if she is "done", wants a D, has OM, is sexually active...?
But those thoughts DRAIN me. So I force them out.
My mind flitters but my actions are consistent and I am proud of that.
