Tomorrow is a New Day

[hopefulinga]

I met with our deceased friend's wife today and we talked for a long time and it was good to talk to her. I told her what I knew about the accident and answered her questions, which made her feel better. Someone gave her a video of the crash and she told me that I am on the short list to see it. I told her that I really didn't think I could handle it, but my H would probably like to see it. She said ok.

I called H to let him know and he does want to see it. I asked him to keep it private and he said he would. I know that he will appreciate this and he needs some answers/closure. We still haven't really talked about the accident, and I will not bring it up.

Small progress, H is mostly answering the phone when I call because I now only call if I need him for something. And most of the time his tone is fairly pleasant.

Somedays I wish it were easy to turn off this overanalyzing brain!!

I hope to do some DB this weekend and maybe start some of the other books that I purchased. My new Bible came in yesterday, so now I can do what I was doing at the prayer tower.

It's odd how I used to be so comfortable around H, and now I just don't know what to do or say sometimes. Dinner last night was very quiet. He came home late and didn't say much. I made a little bit of small talk and then quit.