BeingMe, You had to do what feels right for you. By you stepping up to the plate you may begin to see a different side of him. Just hold on tight because your ride may get bumpy in the future.
Now, please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.