Freedomland Ahead

[BeingMe]

Last night I told H that he had to leave. He travels a lot anyway. But, I'm not going to be his "friend" anymore (that's what he thought I was being ... WTF). He comes "home", I pick him up/drop him off from the airport, he eats what I make very happily, drives my car, I have to tip toe to not wake him up when he goes to bed, we spend time with other friends together, but he is not interested in me, in what I do (how is that being a friend to me?). So, I said I am sick of him treating me as if I'm inconsequential. Damn it, I am somebody ... I am the mother of his children, a friend and lover for 19 years of our 26 year marriage. We've moved two continents with our family together. And he thinks we're just friends, and he can go and date, and tells me it's not my business. Well, I thought, he can leave and then it will all be his business. Except, our finances and children. That is MY business.

He is such a manipulator, and can use our situation to his own advantage. But, no more. I may love him, but I'm not stupid. He's gone now, on his motorbike (which he thinks he looks so cool on) to check out a place to move. He left with a sad face, hoping I'd change my mind, but no, I won't. The situation couldn't continue like this.