These goals here are many of the same that I have mentally internalized from what Starsky, Denver, & my IC have given me to work on. I know you can accomplish them, but you do have to try and take some baby steps with them! That is a very big plate to try and finish all in one setting, trust me I know. I started off sprinting for the first 5 months, and found myself at total exhaustion & in a very dark place wanting someone to pour a GatorAide down my throat, so I could continue on.
I am truly proud to have a PMA most of the time, with you guys labeling me as the "Cheerleader". But I would be lying to you, if I said I don't think about things often. My W is a Very Very Beautiful, Intelligent, Wonderful Woman & Mother, whom I truly took advantage of for almost 16 years. So there is no way on God's green earth that I could ever stop thinking about her at all, and neither will you (stop thinking about your W, that is...LoL)
I sit here in the Airport as I type this and watch all of the Families walk by me with kids that are similar ages to mine, and think: Boy I would give my left nut to have that back & start over the right way. Then again, God has given me a gift to work on myself, so that when my W does come back, I can be the Husband, Man, & Father that I need to be.
Of course you have to tell yourself when you see these families walk by that on the surface may all be a facade & they may have just as many problems as the rest of us.
