wow.. didnt realize it had been this long since i updated. been super busy. hockey camp went good. i wasnt able to go. i moved to a new house the day we were going to leave. my help all bailed on me, so i ended up doing it all alone. long day but i got it done and didnt break anything! thank god for my wonderful mother. she came 6.5 hrs away to get S. that really made his day. he loves his grandma.
still trying to unpack 2 weeks later. im not good at that, but i am figuring it out. decorating is going to require some help. lol i started college again this week. alot of hoops to jump through to get in. i'm in and thats what matters.
my STBX is completely insane. i am not bad mouthing her. just stating the facts. her behaviors are so erratic and strange. calling me to whine about her personal life and problems. i politely listen for a few minutes then end the convo, as i really dont care. she made these choices, and now has to deal with the consequences. then she will call and yell and scream. i hang up. txt me hateful stuff about how i ruined her life. i do not respond. going dark is pretty easy these days..lol
my divorce will be final on the 9th. i have my kids for 24 of the next 28 days because she is to busy.. wonder how custody will play out. i dont have a L and that doesnt bother me. thanks to 25 and bug i have been writing my own docs. actually pretty easy. she wont take the kids, as she barely wants them now. anything else she wants, she can have. she will never take my love and new found appreciation for myself and life. i actually love myself these days. i know i am a good man and she is a fool. i turn down dates alot. i am busy and kind of just not into it. went on a few and had fun. my stadards are pretty high these days. one day i will meet someone i really connect with. i am in no hurry. im enjoying being me again.
she does not want her wedding rings at all. wants nothing that has to do with that. so i have an appt. scheduled for after the D. i am selling the rings and using the money to pay for a tattoo. been itching for another one for awhile. getting a big phoenix on my arm. crying a single tear. a phoenix's tear will grant immortality they say. i feel it is pretty appropriate.
9/17 i will have one year of sobriety. i have been getting asked to speak at meetings lately. last week i was the main speaker. wierd to be asked, but nice to be of service. my sponsor has been alot of help, and he says i have helped him.
life is getting better. no expectations, right brit? sounds wierd, but my god has that helped me. i am living life the best i can and taking the time to enjoy the small things. gotta love the strawberries. my new house is smaller which may seem like a drawback. i love it. it is right next to the greenbelt and that is a great run! doin 3 miles in 16 mins these days. tore my shoulder, so i havent been lifting. i can still run!
i have a 4 day weekend to get caught up on stuff and have fun with the kiddos! its going to be good.
