Yesterday my wife was really sick. As sick as I have ever seen her. My daughter has a soccer tournament for the weekend a few hours away so I stayed home to do all the laundry and also to take care of my wife. (Make her soup, tea, get her a cold towel). After I had the kids in bed she said she wanted company so I lied next to her and she reached over and held my hand. First physical contact initiated by her since this started but I realized it might just be because of me taking care of everything for the day. Did not read anything into it.
When my W first talked about separating she told me that she wanted time apart. She was going to visit relatives but she has not made plans for the trip yet so this morning when she told me that she was still feeling sick but wanted to go on the trip (Friday to Monday) I told her it might be a good opportunity for us to have the time apart she wanted while she stayed home and got better. She then walked up to me and and gave me a hug and said she did not want to be apart from me and asked me to not hurt her again. I told her I was ashamed of the way I treated her and it would not happen again. She is now going on this trip with me and our kids.
Kind of confused right now but I guess she saw me really GAL and DETACHING which kept me sane and gave me my self respect back. I do love my wife and family and maybe this will all work out. DR/DB and this board really made a difference. Head kind if spinning right now as I take a moment from packing to write this. This is a crazy roller coaster.
Would love to work to the point where we are in MC together but just going to chill for the weekend.
