It does help. In fact, every thing you have ever said to me on this site has helped and I hope that I'm now where I should be. the next step (living up to my plan) is not going to be easy but I'm confident that I can manage. I know you commented on Denver's plan back then and I'll go through your comments in the next few days. Please feel free to take a swing at me if you think I'm reverting to that selfish, manipulative, inconsiderate pr1@k I've been.
In my present case though, it's more than the fact that it doesn't help my cause and I don't want to justify W leaving me. It' s about not being who I want to be. I've gone through life being very proud of the image I had of myself and now, I've just realised that the image was just a mask, hiding who I truly was inside. I want to be proud of me again, but I want to be proud of the real me, not just what my image of me is. I guess all my life I blamed others (friends, family, lovers) for moving away from me. How could they? I was such a swell guy!! Well, I guess they couldn't have all been wrong. It was me. All along.
On the bright side, I'm 46, healthier than ever, and I've got a plan for a bright future, which doesn't include this ugly baggage I've been dragging along all those years.
Freshman Class of 2012
M-49 W-42 1D-10 T 10 YEARS M 9 YEARS EA/MLC 07/2010 Separation 28/05/2012 PA confirmed 31/07/12 W Asked for D 31/07/12 D on and off the table since then
