Paint it Black (OH Heck No, Paint it PINK!)

[WenikiTiki]

Who knew that bouncing in a bounce house could hurt so many muscles? I think it may be the next fitness fad! My calves and sides are killing me!!!

I've had a moment of clarity. YEP, ANOTHER ONE!

I am spinning again because I keep taking the focus off me. I need to make myself the number one priority in my own life. What OW and STBX are doing is not my problem. Hard as it is, I need to do what he is telling me and just not concern myself with him. We had a conversation Tuesday night.

He said we have no obligation to keep each other informed of our wear-abouts. And then in the next breath he complained that I hadn't told him where I was two times in the past week. That hurt me to the core, he has made it plain he doesn't want to talk to me. He sits and doesn't listen when I do talk.

Where was I Monday night? The same place I've been the 4th Monday of the month for the past 4 years. My quilt guild meeting. I didn't leave him a note, like I have been doing, because I had said something to him 3 different times Sunday something about the guild meeting. But since he has me on disreguard he forgot. (I said I had made the block of the month, I told him about finding a piece of indigo left behind by a student in one of the vats when I was cleaning them out and I would take it to the meeting and I said I had to take some shirts into a gal who wanted to buy some indigo shirts from me, as I was folding them out of the dryer.)

So he says one thing, but wants another. And I did go out with my friend the other night, and somehow sent a text to the work number instead of his mobile. But why does it upset him when I'm not home waiting on him like a puppy dog?

I find it difficult to just let go, but let go I must. I am a page he has turned I'm no longer his concern. And visa-versa. The part where he wants me to keep cooking and shopping for him is confusing. But not if I realize he is just a cake-eater. And as I have been told by OW, my sister, my best friend and many people on this site: People treat you the way you let them.

So I need to quit letting people in my life treat me like their servant.

Rant over!