The strange thing about all this is that he barely talks to me in person but in tm he jokes a bit...today he gave me a ride to the mall and it was a quiet ride he told me how busy he was @ work and he called inquiring an apartment but he said "just to see if he can afford it". Then when we arrived at the mall he reached for me to hug him, I did. Then I told him thanks for the ride and he said " see you tomorrow". When he left, I ran into the ladies washroom and cried. I cried because I can't even kiss my own husband and tell him that I love him.
